9th wedding anniversary is tomorrow, but I haven't mentioned it...and
neither has my significant other. I did get him a gift yesterday that he
will be shocked to receive because I have really been playing off that
he doesn't need it. (He really doesn't, he already has too many, but
it's something he wanted. I mean, I have tons of shoes. I would cry
happy tears if he bought me a nice pair of shoes I wanted.) So at the
rate we've been going lately, he'll probably still have forgotten it's
our anniversary up until he gets a forwarded email tomorrow confirming
the purchase of a bark river knife, and happy anniversary written in the
subject box. Call me devious, sure but make sure you put that I'm good
at it too. ;)
Feeling stronger although the losses have
slowed down quite a bit. I think this week it's because I have gotten
back into my bible. Unlike other Christians I've come into contact with I
fail. You see I'm what you call a human, and sometimes I fail. Well let
me rephrase that....EVERY STINKIN' DAY I fail. I had been neglecting my
time with Him, and I was/am paying for it. I need to spend time with
Him everyday, and when I don't I can't fully live up to Galatians 2:20.
That means, I get road rage because someone pulled out in front of ME, I
yell at the kids, because they disrespect ME, I get mad at my husband,
because he made ME mad, I get sad and throw a pity party, because woe is
ME....so on and so forth. When I spend time with Him (God is love so
when I spend time with Love), I show more love to others. I see His love
and mercy, that I don't deserve it, and cannot help but pass it on. I
become gracious to the drivers around me, because deep down I don't know
where they've been or where they're headed. I discipline my kids,yes,
but I do it in love, because one of these days it'll be their turn, and I
don't want my grand kids coming and telling me their mama or daddy
yelled at them in anger. (Jesus never yelled at me in anger, and there's
been a lot of times He probably should have..there's that mercy word
again.)I love my husband regardless of what he does, because I cannot
force him to be what he needs to be just like he can't force me. I can
however force myself to behave. AND THE BIGGIE.....I have joy returned
to me because this world is not my Home. No one feels comfortable living
in a place that's not their home. Of course it's going to suck. So
what!! The time I spend down here is a mere drop in the bucket compared
to my eternity with the Lord when He decides to take me Home, and I
think all these crappy things that come my way are little, and yes
sometimes big, reminders of that.
Geez Louise! I don't know where all that came from! Guess my soul was typing instead of my head lol.
Everyone hang in there today!! One day at a time. Pay your body, and it'll pay you back!
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